In a quest to make a little extra money for the holidays, I took on some contract work with a family member. I was really excited about doing the work, as it is something I’m good at and love to do. It was also exciting knowing that I was going to be able to get some extra income coming in to spend. How many times do you make the mistake about not going to God for even the simplest things? Me? Often. Just when I’m on a roll seeking God on every thing in my life, I run into my own way and forget all about finding out if He is okay with me doing things. I beat myself up everytime. Seek God for ALL things! Be slow to speak! Is what I tell myself. But, His grace is sufficient, even when I make those mistakes.
So, i started working on this project and by the end of the day I realized I had made a bit mistake. I’m sure if I would have taken the time to pray and seek God on whether I should do this job or not, He would have given me all of what I needed to see before I started. But, I didn’t. I went in, full speed and realized at midnight in the middle of working, that I should have prayed about this. Because I’m not a person to go back on my word, I continued on with the project. I think that is what God calls us to do. Finish what we start. Keep our word. Don’t negate on a task. Right? “If a man vows a vow to the Lord, or swears an oath to bind himself by a pledge, he shall not break his word. He shall do according to all that proceeds out of his mouth” Numbers 30:2. I’m a stickler for keeping my word even if it hurts. The project at hand took me a full week to do. Sunday to Sunday. I didn’t factor in my usual day-to-day duties. My girls soon realized that I was not as present in certain areas as I usually am. My days were starting later and later from the late nights of just trying to get things finished as quickly as possible since there was also a deadline to this project.
Well, I learned my lesson, again. I used this as a teaching moment for my girls; which I’m sure I’ve told them about before, but, again, isn’t that what we do, make the same mistakes at times. In a quest for something temporary, I placed my priorities at the bottom of the list. I missed a school project with my daughter, we didn’t have our play times nor coffee time with my oldest daughter, I also failed to eat properly, staying up until 4 a.m., amongst other things that got looked over. I have to speak from a perspective of a stay-at-home mom here, homeschooling mom and wife. Those are the hats I wear on a daily basis. Which is the same as the hats for most women. Whether we work at home or outside of the home, there is a list of top things that God has placed in us to do in this season of life. I talk about seasons in another post and how where we are is where God has us now. That doesn’t mean that our roles won’t change as we get older, we become mothers, grandmothers, go back to college, or whatever the case may be. It just means that whatever season we are in, we need to focus on the work at hand and not add something that God hasn’t placed in our season.
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1
I’m grateful for how the Lord teaches me and shows me everyday where I may fail in myself, I’m able to grow in Him. I want my daughters to understand their season in life right now. I want them to know that their priorities they have now are a temporary season that will move them on to where God has them next. We can’t do everything, although we as women try; I’m guilty. But, I’m happy to not be superwoman, I’ve learned my lesson, again and hopefully for the last time. I’m happy relying on God’s superpowers to get me through each season in life. He sustains me, fills me with the joy to keep going when I think I can not. In my weakness, he is strong. When I fail to listen, fail to complete my on-going to-do list and fail to take care of myself, he gives me all that I need in who He is. “My grace is all you need. “My power works best in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9.
For His Glory,